From Cruch to Crash

This writing is a mix of reality and imagination.
Extract from this writing: "I really like you, I like your jokes, I like your friendship, I like the time which we spend together, But!!!!! ".
"I like you as a friend. Just a friend and not more than that"

It was on 9th June 2005, I first saw her.
Her child face attracted me the most. She was the most beautiful girl in our litmus batch who joined the company on June 9th. As we entered into the conference room to meet HR, to complete the joining formalities she sat opposite to me. I felt so lucky that I could see her cute face by looking straight. But I lacked the confidence to look at her as I felt too inferior to her. After all, it is very difficult for a dark guy like me to attract a good looking girl like her. But I was not in a mood to give up as I had nothing to loose. I tried to be smart in front of others and to an extend I was successful in getting her attention.

On the next day, our team was split into different groups with six members each. In my team, we were three boys and three girls and she was one among them. I was very happy to have her in my team. We started talking to each other, sending messages, discussing personal matters etc. As the days passed we became good friends. I even felt that she was a part of mine.

Every day we used to send "Good Night" messages. Always my messages ended "Gunnite. Sweet Dreams" and her "May God Bless You". My mother always insisted me to marry a girl who is always God fearing and I observed that quality in her and which in turn boosted my love towards her. Sooner my messages also started ending "May God Bless You". I even felt that transition and I loved it.

Finally I decided to tell her about my love but what confused me was "How could I present myself to her?".
I do remember, in those days I even saw some romantic films to get an idea to propose her. But all those were too cinematic and lacked soul in it. So I decided not to try any of those. One day I got a mail from one of my friend with subject line "You Are My Angel". It had got a check list confirm whether we are in love with someone. After reading that I realized, I was in deep love with her and I decided to propose her. I forwarded that mail to her with some notes in it.

I wrote, "It is your face that comes into my mind while reading this. I doubt you are my Angel".

She did not respond to my mail for a long time and I thought she had not even seen it. On that day after office hours she came to me and asked.
"I got a mail from you, what was that?"
I said, "What I had written is true and that is the true feeling I felt while reading that mail".
I saw her, looking into my face with a fainted feeling. I continued, "I do not know why or how, But I truly love you".

After saying this I felt like a king. She just laughed at me and then all of a sudden her face turned red and she started crying. With tears in her eyes, she said "I really like you, I like your jokes, I like your friendship, I like the time which we spend together, But!!!!! ".
"I like you as a friend. Just a friend and not more than that".

That was the moment when I realized how a crush can turn out to be a crash. All the dreams which I saw about her, all the songs to which we both danced together in my dreams flashed through my mind and I was totally lost.
I asked her "No hope ?".
She replied "Sorry".
I felt so bad and I walked out from there.

As I passed through the corridor of that building,
I saw another girl with a similar child face and similar charm.
Suddenly the same songs came to my mind, but this time it was the new girl who was dancing with me. I felt so happy and comfortable. I went to her and said "Hi, May god bless you".
With a cute smile on her face, she replied "Sweet dreams". Hearing that I said to myself "Navin, its your chance now".

With lot of hope I went out of my office that day with my new Valentine in my heart.