എന്റെ രണ്ടു പ്രണയങ്ങള്‍

During a chat with one of my friend, he asked me to write blogs and send it acros to him as he was interested in it. Once the chat is over I wrote this crazy stuff and posted it in FB in 15 mins .-)>?

ഒരു മരുഭൂമി  പോലെ  ഉണങ്ങി  വരണ്ടു , ഒരു  മരപ്പച്ചക്കായി  കാത്തിരുന്ന  എന്റെ  മുന്നിലേക്ക്‌  മഴയായി  പെയ്തിരങ്ങിയതാണ്  അവള്‍ . ആദ്യമേ  കണ്ടപ്പോള്‍  എനിക്ക്  അവളോട്‌  ഇഷ്ടം  തോന്നി  ഇല്ലെങ്കിലും ,മെല്ലെ  അവളോട്‌  അടുത്തപ്പോള്‍  എന്തോ  ഒരു  ആത്മബന്ധം  ഞങ്ങളില്‍  ഉരുത്തിരിഞ്ഞു  വരുന്നതായി എനിക്ക് തോന്നിയിരുന്നു . ഞാന്‍  ആദ്യം  മടിച്ചു  മടിച്ചായിരുന്നു  അവളോട്‌  സംസാരിച്ചിരുന്നത് . അവളെ  ആദ്യം കണ്ടപ്പോള്‍  അവള്‍  പറഞ്ഞു , സുഹൃത്തുക്കള്‍ ആകണം എങ്കില്‍  എന്നെക്കുറിച്ചുള്ള  എല്ലാ  വിവരങ്ങളും  അവളോട്‌ പറയണം എന്ന് . ഒരു  പക്ഷെ  ഒരിക്കലും  ചതിക്കപെടരുത്  എന്നുള്ള  അവളുടെ  ആഗ്രഹം  ആയിരിക്കണം  അതിനു അവളെ  പ്രേരിപ്പിച്ചത് .
സത്യസന്ധമായ  ഒരു  ബന്ധം  ആഗ്രഹിച്ച  ഞാന്‍  ഒരു  മറയും  കൂടാതെ  അവള്‍ക്കു  എന്റെ  എല്ലാ  വിവരങ്ങളും  കൈമാറി . അവള്‍  അത്  ഇപ്പോഴും  നിധി  പോലെ ഇപ്പോഴും സൂക്ഷിക്കുന്നു .

പിന്നീടു അവള്‍ എന്നോട് എന്റെ ഒരു ചിത്രം ചോദിച്ചു . ഞാന്‍  ആദ്യം  ഒന്ന്  അമ്പരന്നു , മനസ്സില്‍ ഓര്‍ത്തു,  ഇനി  വല്ല  കൊട്റെഷനും കൊടുക്കാനാന്നോ  എന്ന് . പക്ഷെ  അവളുടെ  ചിരിയിലെ  സത്യസന്ധത  എന്നെ  വല്ലാതെ  മയക്കി  കളഞ്ഞു .
കയ്യില്‍  ഒരു  ചിത്രം  ഉടനെ  എടുക്കാന്‍  ഇല്ലാത്തതു  കാരണം  ഞാന്‍  എന്റെ  മറ്റൊരു  സുഹൃത്തിനു  കൊടുത്ത ഒരു  ചിത്രം വാങ്ങി  അവള്‍ക്കു  കൊടുത്തു . ആ ചിത്രം കണ്ടപ്പോള്‍  ആദ്യം  അവളൊന്നു  ചിരിച്ചു,  എങ്കിലും  പിന്നീടു  എന്നോട്  പറഞ്ഞു, കറുമ്പന്‍  ആണെങ്കിലും  നീ  ഒരു  സുന്ദരന്‍  തന്നെ എന്ന്. അതെനിക്ക്  വളരെ  അധികം  ഇഷ്ടപ്പെട്ടു . എന്നിലെവിടെയോ  ഒരു  ശ്രീനിവാസന്‍  കോമ്ബ്ലെക്സ്  ഉണ്ടെന്നു  എനിക്ക്  പണ്ടേ  അറിയാമായിരുന്നു.

പലപ്പോഴും ഞങ്ങളുടെ  ഒത്തുചേരലുകള്‍ ചെറിയ  കാര്യങ്ങളില്‍  നിന്നും  വലിയ  സംഭാഷണത്തിലേക്ക്  പോകുമായിരുന്നു.  ഞാന്‍  എന്ത്  പ്രത്യേകത  ഉള്ള  കാര്യം  ചെയ്താലും  അത് അവളോട്‌  പറയാറുണ്ടായിരുന്നു. അവള്‍  അതുപോലെ  തന്നെ  അവളുടെയും കൂടാതെ അവളുടെ  സുഹൃത്തുകളുടെയും വിശേഷങ്ങള്‍ ഞാനുമായി  പങ്കു  വെക്കുമായിരുന്നു. അവളിലൂടെ  ഞാന്‍  അവളുടെ  സുഹൃത്തുകളും , പിന്നീട്  എന്റെതുമായ  സുഹൃത്തുകളും ആയി  സംസാരിക്കാരുണ്ടായിരുന്നു.

രാവിലെ  എഴുന്നേല്‍ക്കുമ്പോള്‍  തന്നെ  അവളെ  കാണണം എന്ന  ആഗ്രഹം  എന്റെ  മനസിലുണ്ടാകും .
പക്ഷെ  പലപ്പോഴും സമയക്കുറവു  കൊണ്ട്  അത്  പറ്റാതെ  പോകും . എന്നിരുന്നാലും  ഞാന്‍  ദിവസവും  ഓഫീസില്‍  എത്തുമ്പോള്‍  എന്റെ  മെയില്‍ബോക്സ് ഓപ്പണ്‍  ചെയ്യുന്നതിന്  മുന്‍പേ  അവളെ  ആയിരുന്നു  തിരഞ്ഞിരുന്നത് .
ഞാന്‍  പോലും  അറിയാതെ  എന്റെ  മനസിന്‌  അവളോട്‌ ഒരു  ചെറിയ  പ്രണയം  തോന്നി  ഇരുന്നു .
അത്  സത്യമെന്ന്  ഞാന്‍  പലപ്പോഴും  തിരിച്ചു  അറിഞ്ഞിരുന്നു .
അവള്‍ എപ്പോഴും അനുസരണ  ഉള്ള  ഒരു  കൊച്ചു  കുട്ടിയെ  പോലെ, തിരിച്ചൊന്നും  പറയാതെ  ഒരു  ചെറു  പുഞ്ചിരിയോടെ ഞാന്‍ പറയുന്നതെല്ലാം കേട്ടിരിക്കുമായിരുന്നു.
അതെന്നെ  കൂടുതല്‍  കൂടുതല്‍  അവളോട്‌  അടുക്കാന്‍  സഹായിച്ചു .
അവളിലൂടെ  ഞാന്‍  പറയുന്നതെല്ലാം  എന്റെ  സുഹൃത്തുക്കളും  അറിഞ്ഞിരുന്നു .  അങ്ങനെ  അവള്‍  എന്റെ  സൌഹൃദ  വലയം  വലുതാക്കി  കൊണ്ടേ  ഇരുന്നു.

പലപ്പോഴും  ഉറക്കം  പോലും  കളഞ്ഞു  ഞാന്‍ അവളുടെ  മുന്‍പില്‍  കുത്തി  ഇരുന്നു  സംസാരിക്കുമായിരുന്നു.
എന്തോ  പലപ്പോഴും  അവള്‍  എനിക്കൊരു  ആശ്വാസം ആയിരുന്നു . ആരും  കൂടെ ഇല്ലാതെ, ഒറ്റക്കാണെന്നു  തോന്നുന്ന  വേളകളില്‍  അവള്‍  എപ്പോഴും എന്റെ  അടുത്ത്  ഓടി എത്തുമായിരുന്നു.

പക്ഷെ  കഴിഞ്ഞ  ഒരാഴ്ച  ആയി  എന്തോ  ഞാന്‍  അവളില്‍  നിന്നും വല്ലാതെ  അകന്നോ  എന്നൊരു  ചിന്ത  എന്നെ  അലട്ടുന്നു . ഒരു  പക്ഷെ  അകന്നിരിക്കാം , കാരണം  ഞാന്‍  കഴിഞ്ഞ  ഞായര്‍  ആഴ്ച  ആയിരുന്നല്ലോ  അവളെ  പോലെ  തന്നെ  സുന്ദരിയും , നല്ലവളുമായ  അവളുടെ  സുഹൃത്തിനെ  കണ്ടത്, എന്റെ  ഇപ്പോഴത്തെ പുതിയ  സുഹൃത്ത്‌.
ശരിയാണ് ഇന്നലെ  കൂടി  ഇടക്കൊന്നു  അവളോട്‌  സംസാരിച്ചപ്പോള്‍  അവള്‍  പറയുന്നത്  കേട്ടു,

"പുതിയ  സുഹൃത്തുകളെ  കിട്ടിയപ്പോള്‍  എന്നെ  വേണ്ടാതായല്ലോ   എന്ന്  .-)>?"

ഇപ്പോള്‍  ഞാന്‍  ശരിക്കും അവളുടെ  സുഹൃത്തിന്റെ  കൂടെ  ആണ്  കൂടുതല്‍  അടുപ്പം. അതില്‍  അവള്‍ക്കു  നല്ല ദേഷ്യവും , വിഷമവും  ഉണ്ടാകും .
പക്ഷെ  ഞാന്‍  എന്ത്  ചെയ്യാനാണ്. സ്നേഹം  എന്നത്  ആര്‍ക്കും  ആരോടും  തോന്നാവുന്ന  ഒന്നാണല്ലോ .
അത്  പോലെ  തന്നെ  തട്ടി  തെരുപ്പിക്കാവുന്നതും .
പക്ഷെ  ഞാന്‍  അവളോട്‌  അങ്ങനെ ചെയ്യില്ല . എന്ത് വില  കൊടുത്തും  ഞാന്‍  അവളോടൊപ്പം  തന്നെ  ഉണ്ടാകും.
പക്ഷെ  എനിക്ക്  അവളെ  പോലെ അവളുടെ  സുഹൃത്തും  പ്രിയങ്കരി  ആണ് അതുകൊണ്ട് അതിനെയും ഉപേക്ഷിക്കാന്‍  പറ്റില്ല .
അങ്ങനെ  ഈ രണ്ടു  പേരുടെയും ഇടയില്‍  കിടന്നു  ഞാന്‍ വീര്‍പ്പുമുട്ടുക ആണ്.

ഇപ്പോള്‍ ഞാന്‍ എന്റെ  സമയം ഇവര്‍ക്ക് രണ്ടു  പേര്‍ക്കുമായി  വീതിച്ചു  കൊടുത്ത്, എല്ലാവരെയും  തൃപ്തി  പെടുത്തി, സ്വയം  തൃപ്തനായി  ഇങ്ങനെ  ജീവിക്കുന്നു. എന്റെ പ്രിയ  സഖികളായ  Facebook ഇന്റെയും, Blog ഇന്റെയും  കൂടെ.

ഒരേ  ഒരു  പ്രാര്‍ത്ഥനയോടെ  "ഇനിയും  Mark  Zuckerberg മാര്‍  ഉണ്ടാകരുതേ". കാരണം  ഇനിയും മറ്റൊരാള്‍ക്ക്‌  വീതിച്ചു നല്കാന്‍  എന്റെ  കയ്യില്‍  സമയം  ഇല്ല  എന്നത്  തന്നെ.

A Crush(ed) Odyssey

Looking back to my college days, I feel great as it reminds me of the wonderful time I spent with my true friends. This is an extract from my real life.

With great guts I walked through the corridors of my college.
As I reached the 3rd floor, I saw her standing outside the classroom waiting for her friend.With a smile I walked towards her. She responded with a pretty smile which I used to see in my daily dreams. As I reached her, I told “Hi Maria, tomorrow is our 'Tiger5' football finals with C Batch. They have got all the big guns in their team. I want to win this game. Will you be there to watch it? I wish you be there. Will you come tomorrow?”
Hearing my words she just smiled and said nothing.

After a long silence, I again asked her "Maria I really wish, will you come to watch the finals?”. She thought for a while and then replied to me, "I don't know anything about football, but I will come’. That is one of the most wonderful moment I still cherish. I felt great, I felt like Hilary after conquering Everest, on top with joy and pride. I just said bye to her and left there. That night was a wonderful dreamy night for me. I was the prince and she was my princess. We walked through the desert, jumped over the clouds, swum in the Nile. Everything was wonderful.

Yes, it all started on a Christmas Eve, when I first met her. We chatted for a long time about studies, college, friends, and family. One thing which was common to us was our frequency that was a real match. And we used to meet each other so frequently.

Atlas the finals came. All my friends were gathered in the ground, waiting for the game to start. Me in the middle of dreams, waited for her. My team was planning strategies but without their captain, as I was lost in love.
Seeing me lost in the dreams my batch mates started teasing. I just responded with smile having the confidence that she will come to watch me playing, scoring the goals for my team and my girl.

The game started, I really played hard and we completed the first half with 0-0 on board. I searched for her but no sight of her nearby and I was half dead, but still I had that last bit of hope, which gave me the power to fight back. I expected her entry at any time, so played with full threshold to score for her.

As the time passed by, I felt like sinking in deep water, all of a sudden I heard a comment from one of my close friend- "Navin, don’t wait for her man, she won't come . Just now I saw her walking with her friends to attends John’s birthday party".

After hearing this, I was fully lost. All of a sudden my opponents started scoring goals one after another. And the game ended with 0-3 on board. I stood like the captain of a sinking ship. All the blames were thrown on me. I called her and asked “Why did not you come”, she replied “Sorry I don’t like football players”.
And my first crush turned to be a crash.

My journey continues with smiles, chats, crushes, proposals and finally the same old crash. But am cool, coz am a “Football Player”.

Last Dream

I did not know what made me write this until I wrote it fully. Finally I realized I was dreaming.

I started walking through the desert,through the sands where a thousand stories of yesterday are lying. It was too hot for me to walk through the lonely, vast sand hills but your sparkling face led me through the wonderland.

Sun was moving from east to west. Suddenly I felt thirsty and I looked around, nowhere near I found a greenery. I felt as if I am lost in the sands which was once my favourite attraction. I always loved deserts and even in my sweetest dreams I went through these places, where for the first time I saw a queen on the camel and I felt she was searching for me.

Whenever I tried to get to her I was woke up from my dream. I cursed the dreams a thousand times just because it ends so quickly and leaves behind nothing but only hopes. I even prayed to the God for hours and asked him to last the dreams for long but no use at all. It comes and vanishes all of a sudden. But you know, her cute face never vanished from my heart. I was always in search for that face in the crowd until I met you and knowing that you are the queen who came to my dreams.

After we met I had a lot to dream, the time we spent, words you told, smile you gifted to my jokes, tears you dedicated to my sorrows and the confidence you gave which made me a hero. I believe you are everything to me and I know you too feel the same. When ever I was alone I wanted you to be with me.
But on that rainy Saturday you went away from me without saying a word. That was the first time I really cursed this life. It will give us everything we like but without saying a word it will take away all those gifts. You know I really do not wanted to miss you. That is why I always held you tight in my hands and you used to say "Nav, it is really hurting me". On hearing that I used to loosen my hands so that you could be comfortable. You know baby, I loved you so much, still loving you and will for ever. I do not know why you went without me but I will never curse you rather myself...

Now I am on my way to her. Suddenly I heard her voice "Nav fasten up, how long I was waiting for you? me alone, with your memories. Come on, hold my hands, I will help you to step into my world, the land you never saw even in your dreams". My eyes brightened, I looked around but she was not there and I felt so bad. Suddenly through the clouds her fair, lean hands came out and it held my hand and through the clouds I stepped into that new world which I knew was "HEAVEN".

From Cruch to Crash

This writing is a mix of reality and imagination.
Extract from this writing: "I really like you, I like your jokes, I like your friendship, I like the time which we spend together, But!!!!! ".
"I like you as a friend. Just a friend and not more than that"

It was on 9th June 2005, I first saw her.
Her child face attracted me the most. She was the most beautiful girl in our litmus batch who joined the company on June 9th. As we entered into the conference room to meet HR, to complete the joining formalities she sat opposite to me. I felt so lucky that I could see her cute face by looking straight. But I lacked the confidence to look at her as I felt too inferior to her. After all, it is very difficult for a dark guy like me to attract a good looking girl like her. But I was not in a mood to give up as I had nothing to loose. I tried to be smart in front of others and to an extend I was successful in getting her attention.

On the next day, our team was split into different groups with six members each. In my team, we were three boys and three girls and she was one among them. I was very happy to have her in my team. We started talking to each other, sending messages, discussing personal matters etc. As the days passed we became good friends. I even felt that she was a part of mine.

Every day we used to send "Good Night" messages. Always my messages ended "Gunnite. Sweet Dreams" and her "May God Bless You". My mother always insisted me to marry a girl who is always God fearing and I observed that quality in her and which in turn boosted my love towards her. Sooner my messages also started ending "May God Bless You". I even felt that transition and I loved it.

Finally I decided to tell her about my love but what confused me was "How could I present myself to her?".
I do remember, in those days I even saw some romantic films to get an idea to propose her. But all those were too cinematic and lacked soul in it. So I decided not to try any of those. One day I got a mail from one of my friend with subject line "You Are My Angel". It had got a check list confirm whether we are in love with someone. After reading that I realized, I was in deep love with her and I decided to propose her. I forwarded that mail to her with some notes in it.

I wrote, "It is your face that comes into my mind while reading this. I doubt you are my Angel".

She did not respond to my mail for a long time and I thought she had not even seen it. On that day after office hours she came to me and asked.
"I got a mail from you, what was that?"
I said, "What I had written is true and that is the true feeling I felt while reading that mail".
I saw her, looking into my face with a fainted feeling. I continued, "I do not know why or how, But I truly love you".

After saying this I felt like a king. She just laughed at me and then all of a sudden her face turned red and she started crying. With tears in her eyes, she said "I really like you, I like your jokes, I like your friendship, I like the time which we spend together, But!!!!! ".
"I like you as a friend. Just a friend and not more than that".

That was the moment when I realized how a crush can turn out to be a crash. All the dreams which I saw about her, all the songs to which we both danced together in my dreams flashed through my mind and I was totally lost.
I asked her "No hope ?".
She replied "Sorry".
I felt so bad and I walked out from there.

As I passed through the corridor of that building,
I saw another girl with a similar child face and similar charm.
Suddenly the same songs came to my mind, but this time it was the new girl who was dancing with me. I felt so happy and comfortable. I went to her and said "Hi, May god bless you".
With a cute smile on her face, she replied "Sweet dreams". Hearing that I said to myself "Navin, its your chance now".

With lot of hope I went out of my office that day with my new Valentine in my heart.

Missing You

When you miss the one you love, what will you do :-)

Oh my love, you my angel
It's hard to forget the days we spent together
It's hard to miss the one, we love

Life flows like the river calm, quiet
But days of thunder makes its waves
And I am in tempest searching for you
With deep regret,to say sorry

I can see only the mirage under sun
Crossed the Nile, crossed the pyramid
But not a sight of you in the air

It's hard to forget the days we spent together
It's hard to miss the one, we love

I am in ache, but still going
Dreaming, the day when we will meet
Not sure where ends my journey
And not sure when it will end
But the memories that I cherish
Make me the one, what I am now

Some say I am mad with love
Some say I am a fool to love

But I say, I live to love the pearl
That I hold in the MY heart

It's hard to forget the days we spent together
It's hard to miss the one, we love
Oh my love, you my angel

Come again and hold my hand
Show me the way, where you like to go
Even in the deep tempest
Or in the roaring wavy sea

It's hard to forget the days we spent
It's hard to miss the one, we love

My Mom Roselin

In this world if I cannot exist without somebody then that is my sweet Mom. The care, love, affection which she pours on me is unmatchable. I Love her so much. This is a dedication to my mom Roselin.

IT'S GETTING DARK AND I AM GONNA SLEEP
WITH A THOUSAND THOUGHTS OF MY DREAM GIRL

IN MY DREAMS SHE COMES, SINGS THE SONGS OF MY LIFETIME
AND WE PARTY TILL THE MIDNIGHT, DOWN THE EIFFEL

SHE IS AWESOME AND I AM THE NAUGHTY WHO
CRACKS THE JOKES FOR WHICH SHE LAUGHS DOWN HER HEART

IN THE MORNING SHE WAKES ME UP, WITH A HOT COFFEE ON MY BEDSIDE
I LIKE IT MUCH COS SHE MAKES IT FOR HER LAD AND WISH ME "MORNING"

HER SWEET FACE ENLIGHTENS MY DAY AS SHE IS BEAUTIFUL
AND I FEEL ON TOP OF THE WORLD

AND I SAY TO U ALL THAT "SHE IS MY DREAM GIRL"

IN MY DREAMS SHE COMES, SINGS THE SONGS OF MY LIFETIME
AND WE PARTY TILL THE MIDNIGHT DOWN THE EIFFEL

IN THE EVE WE WALKS THROUGH THE STREETS
ADMIRES THE SKY AND ALL THE STARS

AND I SAY TO U ALL THAT "SHE IS MY MOM,
WHO IS MY ANGEL FOR ALL THE TIMES"

AND I LOVE HER SIMPLY COS SHE IS MY MOM AND I AM HER LAD,
WHOM SHE CARE MORE THAN HER IN THIS WORLD

Java Loveletter

This one I wote in 2007 in an internal love letter writing competition conducted by company. I won second prize for it :-)

try{

My sweetheart Browsy,

My life, it was like an uncompiled program ,which never produces an executable code,until you instatntiated your presence in it;

                        .

Clearing all interrupts and exceptions your smilies cascaded new dreams into my primary storage.Before we met i was persisting towards multiple collections by keeping a name_mapping.xml;Usually it threw SAXParser exception. until u came by to save me by enclosing me in try catch block and typecasted me into a singleton object;

I was lost in the for loop of those multiple collections and you exited me from it;No amount of data mining could have extracted those three simple words that you said to me then;Yes,I am committed without any rollback options;I am sure that you will make our Business entity,Love.java a bug free application that will be a super class to all other business entities;And I promise,we will name all our child variables i or j as you like;

My love for you is like an infinite while loop.Don't worry about the firewall created by our parents and brothers as I've strong hacking capabilities to tunnel through their security passwords and showstopping attempts and make them agree for our marriage;Please dont implement any popup blocker to my dreams;

            Kindly interpret this letter properly and grant me all privileges of your inbox;

            Awaiting your instantaneous AJAX response,

            Yours Forever

            Search Engine.

}catch(HeartbeatException hbe){

            hbe.printStackTrace();

            out.println("LUB DUB LUB DUB LUB DUB");

}

Imaginary Romance

Extract from this blog "As I came near to her, I felt some thing special in the way she walks. I checked whether it is a cat walk, but it was not and not even a normal walk. But I liked the way she walked. As I just passed her, I saw her face. I said to myself."

Warning : Do n't panic. This is just a crazy thought of mine. If you have time and if you really want to get bored then continue reading. May God bless you :-)

Finally I got a weekend which I absolutely used for nothing other than sleeping, FaceBooking and creating a blog for my self.
After reading some of my mails which I sent to my friends, they told me to start blogging. I only knew jogging by then.
As I was FaceBooking on Saturday evening, I saw my friend George on line. I asked him on how to start a blog and how to manage it.
He told me almost everything about bloging which he knew. Finally he commented "Man, I also blog, there is no limit for you to write, you could write anything, just do it man".
Out of this entire conversation one little thing caught my attention. And that was, "he also used to blog".
My eyes opened with joy. I thought in my mind, "If this fool could blog then why can't I". That was the turning point.
I started creating one. As I proceeded with blog creation one question really confused me or made me think. It was nothing other than my blogs title.
I thought of many names like Navin, Navzoro, Zoro's World, Nav, My Crooked World etc. etc.
Finally I had decided to name it as "Roselian". No special reason other than my love towards my mom.
Then my next thought was on the content I could put into this blog and then i decided to copy all those mails which I sent to my friends
and some crazy stuffs which I wrote 4 or 5 years back.
One biggest task though was to set up my blog site's design.
I tried almost all available background images, the one with love sign to make a statement to all gals visiting my site that I am a lovable guy.
Then I thought, "do I need to promote it though a background image, let them knew it through my character". Still realizing Internet could not expose our real character through the wire less signals it is transmitting or through the analogue signals passing through the cable.
Dudes please note that I still have a good grip on Electronics, eventhough I am a software engineer who is doing absolutely nothing other than the so called "Managing" after completing degree in Electronics and Communication.
I still do not know why I learned all those useless (meaning its use is very much less these days) things. Did I study it just for the sake of getting a degree. Or whether I am forced to study it as otherwise I would be a jobless geek wandering through the streets of my native.
But now when I am writing this I realize, it is just because of that I am using a laptop, created a blog and able to write and send it across to you.
So no more comments on that.
Finally I decided to go with a green background. With great thoughts to promote "Go Green" slogan, even though never ever in my life I planted a tree.
Sitting in an ac room and talking big about Global warming and Green promotion, I always felt proud, simply because of the hope that somebody who listens to me would do it with the true spirit.
As most of the manager says, we are just mediators, our job is to take things from one side and pass it on to the other side. This always made me think. Finally I understood, for transferring anything you need a medium. Managers are a medium. Still the definition is not fully derived by me and still I am on that process.
After all the hardwork of around 2 hrs I finally created a blog for me successfully. Even I tested it by sending the links to FB and confirmed whether everything is working as expected. Still that testing skills I learned from my previous company is strongly reflecting in me.
Now when I am in front of the laptop and thinking of posting some crap out of my head, lot many subjects are coming out of my mind.
Let me share the new thing I learned from my new job. The great multi tasking. No, I think that will be too boring for you.
Then what I will write.
Ya I got a subject. Guys, I am gonna write a semi realistic and semi imagination stuff.
The realism starts here.....
As I was walking out of my office through the Baner - Balewadi road, I saw a girl walking in front of me. Until I saw her, I was walking in a slow pace. But all of a sudden, I do not know why or how my pace increased but I felt it. Like the smell of the perfume on the girl standing next to you in a lift. You do not know which perfume it is but still you feel it. May be it is because of the global rule. "Boys will always get attracted to Girls".
As I came near to her, I felt some thing special in the way she walks. I checked whether it is a cat walk, but it was not and not even a normal walk. But I liked the way she walked. As I just passed her, I saw her face. I said to myself. "she is damn cute man" and as I passed her I saw CCD.
Now the imagination starts....
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(Now here it is almost 12:00 O' Clock, I am feeling sleepy. More than that I do not have time to waste, as I want to get into my dream. A dream full of me and her, colors and flowers, songs and dances, laughter and smile, romance and love. I wish if it rained here in Pune... Rain always boosts my romantic feelings)
Until my alarm rings at 9:00 AM, I am going to dream. So guys please pray for me. Tell the God to take her into my dream so that you would get a chance to read the  part  imaginary of this realistic story.
If you do not pray then I will come up with another crazy stuff through my blog.
Gunnite .-)>?

-Nav-

Boys

Boys may be dark or fair to stare
But boys are boys to live up to life
We are hard enough to fight the race
But we just give up to make you happy
Cos we are the boys whom you love

Look at the rocks it is hard to hold
Give it to us ,we will melt it out

The paths are full of thorns and fire
Hold our hands to cross the hurdle
Cos we are the ones who stands to fight
All the worst obstacles you face

Life is like the sea you admire
You are the one yachting on it
The ways are open and you have to go
When it is calm you never think of us
But when it is dark and hard to go
You trust us, to get the shore that is far
That is why you call us the Boys...

When it is raining and you feel the cold
We are there to light the woods
That is why you call us the Boys...

Sky is blue and nice to watch
But when it is storming, you look for shelter
Just let us know ,you are in trouble
We are there to find out the way
To guard you from the call of nature
That is why you call us the Boys...

We are boys to live up to life
We are hard enough to fight the race
But we just give up to make you happy
Cos we are the boys whom you love

-Nav-

Regret

Here is another stuff I wrote when I was really haunted by loneliness :-)

I don't know where this track ends
But in my little heart our friendship
Is still raining with all its beauty

When I was down, you were with me to
Take away my sorrows
When I was on a high you were with me to
Guide me to the right

But at times I forgot you
And at times I avoided you

But you were with me all the times
Behind me in disguise to hold me when I fall
But still I didn't discern you

I was in a flow behind all the joys
Never caring you, never caring my self

Life is so splendid and I was blind in the splendor
What I lived is nothingJust went after the glitters

Now when I am in pain, no body with me
And crying like a baby
Does n't know what to do
Just tears flowing through my eyes

My heart is saying a thousand sorry
And I am in great regret
I realize, what I did was wrong

I know you will come back
To make me happy and wipe out my tears

B'cos you are the true friend I hold in my heart
And here I am alone in great regret

-Nav-

Friendship

I wrote this on September 2005 after joining my first company. Now I got this from an un looked folder in my laptop :-)

TIME JUST PASSES LIKE  LIGHTNING...
MILES TO GO TO MY DESTINATION...
WAITING IN THE DARKNESS TO GET MY HOME...
LONELYNESS FRIGHTENS ME LIKE A DEVIL...

LOOKING BACK TO MY WAY REMINDS ME...
THE FALLEN LEAVES FROM THE CHERRY...
ONCE THEY WERE GREEN AND BRISK...
BUT THE HEAT AND WIND WIPED THEIR BEAUTY...

BUT IN MEMORY NOTHING HAS CHANGED...
STILL THE SAME OLD BEAUTY I CHERISH...
THOSE DAYS I STILL HOLD IN MY HEART...
THOSE HANDS I HOLD, STILL SMILING...

THEY CALLED ME FRIEND...
AND I LOVED MY FRIENDS...
COS THEY ARE THE SWEETEST GIFTS I STILL HOLD...

THEY MADE ME LAUGH WEN I WAS IN PAIN...
THEY MADE ME WHAT I AM NOW...

THERE WERE A LOT MANY WHO WANTED TO BE MY FRIEND...
THERE WERE A LOT MANY WHOM I WANTED TO BE WITH ME...
LIFE GOES ON LIKE THE WIND CALM,QUIET,STRONG THROUGH ALL THE PHASES...
BUT TRUE FRIENDS HOLDS US TIGHT IN THE STORM...

IF I COUNT THEM, ITS UNCOUNTABLE...
IF I NAME THEM, ITS NEVER ENDING...
BUT IF I SAY "FRIENDS"....
IT MEANS A LOT...

FRIENDS ARE FRIENDS FOR EVER...

Friendship

-Nav-

Pune Kadhakal V0.1 (Mail from Pune to Friends on 19th Nov 2010)

Hi Buddies,

Zurichile kidilan thanuppinodum sundarikalaya penkuttikalodum vida paranju njan avasanam pukayum podiyum niranja puneyil ethi.Unakka breadum, pizzayum adichu thakarnnu poya ente vayar ennodu manthrichu "Thanks, Buddy :-)".Nattilethiyal kappayum meenum kazhiikanam ennagrahicha enikku ivide adyam kazhikkan kittiyathu Hyderabad Dum Biriyani ayirunnu.Manamadichappol nalla Dum thonniyenkilum kazhichu kazhinjappol ulla Dum koodi poyi. Ennalum ente vayar happy ayirunnu. Avan neetti oru embakkavum vittu oru sidil charinju.


Nattilekku varan valare adhikam santhosham ayirunnenkilum zurich vittappol oru cheriya vishamam undayirunnu. Jeevithathil othiri vittu pokalukal experience ullathu kondu valiya prashnam thonni illa. Enthayalum thirichu varum enna pratheesha enkilum ippravashyam undallo.

Ivide Puneyil melle thanuppu thudangi. Penkuttikal sweater ittu kandappol anu athu manasilayathu. Njan ippol thamasikkunnathu valare doore anu. Yathra is too dushkaram. Daily auto pidikkanam.Hindi athrakku ariyathathu karanam autokar chodikkunna paisa kodukkum. Adiyittal thirichu hindiyil samsarikkanamallo :-)Orazhayile auto charginte daily graph nokkiyal oru sine wave pole anu. Ingane koodiyum kuranjum irikkum. So bhasha padikkan theerumanichu.So romantic and comedy films vittittu action filmsilekku thiriyanulla plan anu. karanam athil hindiyil dialogue adichu thallu koodunna scenes undallo.

Pune officile payyanmarkku client ayathu karanam alpam respect undu. But Indian ayathu kondu nalla puchavum. Randinteyum idayil kidannu njan ingane armadhikkukayanu.

Njan ippol ivide oru 2BHK flat kandu pidikkunna thirakkilanu. Oru 1bhk poyi kandu, but not spaceous. Pinne alochichu ini oru pennu kettiyal minimum 2bhk vende ennu. Eventhough pennu kettanulla possibility minimum anenkilum.So angane theerumanichu, pakshe ammayodu ee reason paranjappol ammayude comment "2BHK anu nallathu, pakshe nee 2bhk eduthalenkilum oru pennu kettumo". Bhagyam amma "Ninakku pennu kittumo" ennu chodikkathathu.

Ente manager company vidunnathinu munpayi innu thottu 3 weeks vacation anu, girl friendu mothu barbadosil karangal pokukayanu. Pulli enneyum kurachu upadeshichu, "Navin marriage onninum pariharam alla, nammal onninodum bandhikka pettu kidakkaruthu, always free ayirikkanam and shud anjoy life". Pulliyude thathwam enikkishta pettu. But pulli 50 am vayasilum vadi pole nilkkukayanu. Njan mikkavarum 40 akumbozhe thazhe veezhum.

Pulliyude pani melle ente thalakkittu thudangi. Nalla pani ayi kondirikkunnu. Onnukil adutha oru varsham kondu njan oru puli akum allenkil njan oru pranthanum. Randamathethinanu kooduthal sadhyatha. Ningal chilappol manasil parayunnundakum "nee already oru pranthan anallo" ennu. Ningalellavarum ente athma suhruthukal anallo. So enikku ellam pidi kittum.

Pinne nammude anoop accident kazhinju recover cheythu varunnu ennarinju. Kidu. Pulli pettennu sugham prapikkatte. Njan idakku vilikkarundu.Runcy kazhinja pravashyam bouquet anoopinu kondu poyittu avasanam nursinu koduthu ennarinju. Ippravashyam kanan pokumbol kondu pokaruthu ennu parayanam. Karanam anoopinte koode nilkkunnathu nurse alla swantham sister anu.So nalla adi medikkum.

Next time ningal anoopine kanan pokumbol oru kilo orange enkilum vangi kondu pokanam. Kazhinja pravashyam onnum kondu koduthilla ennoru parathi undayirunnu. Koodathe ellavarum orumichu kanan pokaruthu ennoru nirdesham anoop vechu. Separate ayi poyal oranginte kilo koodum ennanu kanakku. (EE mail daivathe orthu ningal anoopinu ayakkaruthu)
Ammaye ethrayum pettennu ivide kondu varanam. ammaye vallathe miss cheyyunnu. Koode ningaleyum. Ellavareyum pirinju irikkumbol anu alukalude vila manasilakunnathu. Ennu karuthi ellavarum enne kanan puneyilekku vannu budhi muttanam ennilla :-)

Oru production release nadakkukayanu. Deployment 1 hr edukkum so aa idavela effective ayittu utilize cheythanu ee mail draft cheythathu. Thettukal undenkil shemikkuka. next time kooduthal kidilan akkam. Bore ayenkil parayuka, njan vallappozhum ayakkunna ee mail daily ayachu bore adippikkam :-)

Ningal vallappozhum ningalude vishesham ingane mail ayakkuka. Oru rasam anu ithum vayikkan.

Missing u all. Nattil varumbol kanam :-)

Note : Ee mail vayikkumbol enikku ivide pani illa ennu karutharuthu. Nalla pani undu. Pande njanoru multi tasker anallo :-)

-Nav-

Zurich Kadhakal V0.3 (Mail from Zurich to Friends on 11th Nov 2010)

Hi Buddies,

After a long two weeks, finally I got a chance to completely blast off. George, arun and pratheek came from Germany to visit swiss and me.Malayalikale kandappozhum avarodu malayalathil kathiyadikkan pattiyappozhum valare santhosham thonni. Koodathe appratheekshithmayi oru othucharal ayirunnnu.
Avanmar as usual enne palathum paranju kali akkan sramichu, but njan vittukoduthilla paramavadhi pidichu nilkkan sramichu. But this time also no raksha.

Saturday avare receive cheyyan airportil poyi. Avare airportil kandappol valare santhosham ayi. Pinne avarude hotelil poyi checkin cheythittu, nere Zurich kanan poyi.
Lokathile 5th costliest street aya Bahnhofstrasse streetiloode karangi njangal Zurich lake il ethi. Avide boating ayirunnu plan. But annu boating illayirunnu pakaram Wine tasting festival ayirunnu.
Avasanam njangal ellam koodi avide kayari. Njan adyamayi wine adichu. Athu oru 10, 12 brands adichu. Avasanam ayappozhekkum njan ake kirungi poyi. Ini orikkalum adikkilla ennu theerumanichu. Utter koothara sadhanam.

Next day, sunday njangal Europile valiya peak aya Mount Titlisil poyi. Ellavarum koodi trainil ulla yathra kidilan ayirunnu. Kure thamashakalum, kathikalum adichum, photo eduthum avide ethi. Nalla thanuppayirunnu. Cable caril mukalil kayari. Avide chennappol nallapole manju peyyunnu. AA manjathu njagal malayude mukalil kidannu chadukayum, mariyukayum, manju vari erinjum kalichu. Avide skeing season start cheythu. .Kure kazhinju pinne mazhayathu njangal avide ninnum thirichu ponnu.
Georgum arunum okke annu thanne thirichu poyi. Njangal thanuppathu thirichu veettilum poyi.
Ivide ippol nalla thanuppanu. raksha illa. december akumbol ice akum ennu thonnunnu. Engane enkilum nattil vannal mathi :-)

Avide ellavarkkum sugham alle. Enthundu vishesham?

Daivam ningale kathu kollatte, koode enneyum :-)

Ennu Snehathode
-Nav-

Zurich Kadhakal V0.2 (Mail from Zurich to Friends on 3rd Nov 2010)

Hi Buddies,


Ellavarudeyum appraisalum, bandum okke purathu vannu ennarinju. Nalla hike undennu kettalo. Ellavarum happy ano ippol.


Ivide innu alpam veyil undayirunnu. But ennalum nalla thanuppundu. Njan innale rathri khan's restaurantil poyi biriyani kazhichu. Enthorashwasam. kidilan ayirunnu.


Avide ente leftil oru chinese/japanese, couple/friends ayirunnu irunnathu. Avar avarude bhashayil bhayankara panchara adi ayirunnu. Payyan entho valiya thamasha paranjum abhinayichum kanikkunnu. Pennu athu kettu bhayankara chiri ayirunnu. Enikkavanodu alpam (alla nalla :-)) asooya thonni.


Aa payyan enne onnu tharappichu nokki appol enikku jacki chaneyum bruce lee yeyum okke orma vannu pinne njan aa bhagathekku nokkiyilla.

Ente valathu sidil oru south indianum koode 2 swiss karum undayirunnu. avan sayippan mare kathi vechu kolluka ayirunnu.
Avan wiproyeyum accenturineyum kurichu thathwikamayi theri parayunnathayi enikku thonni. Koode irunna sayippu avane kalum valiya kathi veeran ayirunnu. Pulli parayunnu etho randu azhcha evideyo poyappol pulli daily to and fro 48 kilometers nadakkarundayirunnu ennu.

Ivan athu kettu van abhinayavum, dialogue adiyum. Avan chodikkunnathu kettu, "so daily u used to walk 24 kms in the mroning. and that is almost half the distance from delhi to bombay". India ye kurichu ariyatha sayippanennu thonnunnu, pulli thirichu thallunnu " Oh really".

Enthinadhikam parayunnu avasanam avan aa sayippine kondu thanne bill koduppichu.

Pinne ivide officil work cheyyan nalla sugham anu, ravile 8:30 kku officil oru vidham ellavarum ethum, correct samayathu varanam ennu nirbandham onnum illa, pakshe vaikunneram neratheyo allenkil correct samayatho (5:30) ellavaraum sthalam kali akkum. Njan innale late ayi irunnappol ente manager paranju "navin we dont have indian time here, if u have some work to do, do it tomorrow man , no hurry" pinne njan aa pradeshathu ninnilla.


Ee weekend mountainsil  pokanam ennu agraham undu. ivide aduthanu.


Mattu visheshangal pinneedu.

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Zurich Stories V0.1 (Mail from Zurich to Friends on 25th Oct 2010)

Hi Buddies,

I reached Zurich, yesterday morning.Took  8 and half hrs to reach zurich . Airport il irangiyappol Benzumayi driver nilkkunnu. Pinne rajavine pole hotelilekku poyi. Hotelil ethiyappol room cleaning nadakkunnathe ullayirunnu. So luggages vechittu njan karangan irangi. Hotel Zrurich townil thanne anu. main railway stationil ninnum 150 meters. So kure neram stationil kidannu karangi, railway station valiya mall pole anu. Aduthu thanne oru lake undu. avide poyi. Ivide nalla thanupanu. Kidilan sthalam anu. innale cheriya mazhayum undayirunnu.

Karangi thirinju rathri 9:30 anu hotelil ethiyathu. Ravile 8:00 manikku ready ayi officil pokan. Officile administration nokkunna Nataliya carumayi vannu officil kondu pokan. Avarodu carilirunnu kathi adichu, chuluvil ente iniyulla daysil officil poyi varanulla train tickets company a/cil medichu. Allayirunenkil njan pay cheyyendi varumayirunnu :-)

Officil ethi ellavareyum kandu. Ivide nalla olam anu, alukal enjoy cheythanu work cheyyunne. oru camera vanganam. Irikkan oru seatum kitti, adhyam thanne ammayude photo eduthu vechu, udane ellavarum chodichu, "Is it your wife?". Njan thirichu thatti aa same old dialogue. "Still single and ready to mingle". Ennittu aduthu irunnal young swiss collegine (girl, don't mis understand) nokki. She smiled. avar Manasil enthano chinthichathennu ariyilla :-)

Melle pani thudangi. Innu thanupu alpam kuranjittundu. Pattumenkil ee weekend germanyil georginte aduthu ponam, chilappol avanmar ingottu varum. athu plan cheyyanam. Caril vechu nataliya etho aduthulla mountainte karyam paranju avide pokan pattumonnu nokkanam. Pattumenkil aa pavam kuttiyeyum koodi kondu poyi montain kanikkanam :-) Ingane okke alle namukku mattullavare sahayikkan pattoo.

Backi kadhakal udan thanne adutha mailil ayakkam. Facebookil kure updates vannittundu. 2 days ayittu net nokkiyittu. so innu nalla pani anu.

Catch u guys later.

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